Friday, June 21, 2013

These are the days of our lives


My schedule after work:

Leave work 415

Pick up sawyer 430

Bring sawyer inside 450

Let the dogs out 455-500

Empty car 456

Pump 15 minutes 5-515

Wash all bottles/pump items from the day 515-530

Let dogs out again 530-545

Put away clean dishes from night before/clear all kitchen counter space 545-600

Hang with sawyer/manage pups 6-630

Nurse 630-7

Make dinner 7-730

Feed pups 730

Eat dinner 730-745

Clean up from dinner/Mark comes home 745-800

Bathe sawyer 8-815

Nurse 815-845

Put sawyer to bed 845-930

Pump 930-945

Clean bottles from pumping 945-10

Make bottles for next day 945-10

Make lunch for next day 945-10

Try to stay up for an hour or so to spend time with mark 10-1030

Bed 1030-2

Nurse 2-245

Bed 3-6

At some point in here i also try to take a shower and lay out clothes for the next day.
Wake up and do it all over again….
I need a better schedule. One in which I can excersise, have some me time, sit down and put my feet up for a little bit, clean house, etc. suggestions are welcome!

1 week down 1,872 to go…

Today is FRIDAY!  I made it…barely. This morning on my way to work, I actually was falling asleep at the wheel and had to pull over and park for a few minutes. Exhausted is an understatement.

When I was home, only getting 4-5 hours of sleep a night (broken up into two-three stretches) was no big deal because I could nap during the day if I wanted to (which I never did, but regret now) and I could stay in bed later in the morning and do nothing all day, but now that I am back at work 4-5 hours is brutal.

I am hoping within the next month we (sawyer, mark and myself) will have a routine down which will allow me more like 6-8 hours of sleep a night, even if it’s broken up into 2-3 stretches, it’s better than 4-5 hours.

someone obviously has no issues napping

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Breastfeeding (title really jumps out and makes you want to read, right?)


It’s a lot of work…

When I was home I felt like I could only be away from the house for a few hours at a time and I am being generous using “few” vs. “couple”.   Sawyer eats every 3ish hours with usually one longer stretch during the day (4-5 hours)  and one longer stretch during the night (4-5 hours) , nursing takes anywhere from 30 minutes to an hour depending on his mood/motivation and I am really only comfortable doing it at my house in the chair and a half or glider.

When stating a child eats every 3 hours, that is from the start of the 3 hours, so if he eats for 45 minutes, then you burp him and make sure he is content, feeding will start again in about 1.5-2 hours. I have heard and read that as a child gets older and is more comfortable with nursing they get “better” at it, meaning what used to be a 45 minute nursing session could be 15-20 minutes….when is this supposed to happen? Does this actually happen?

There are times where I know he would just go on and on if I allowed it but I have to cut him off and then I feel bad and I am concerned he is not getting enough food. I love the idea of bottle feeding because I know exactly how much he is eating but when I pump it is very inconsistent how much I am going to get. Sometimes there is 4 hours from one pump to the next with no breastfeeding in between and I will get 4 ounces and sometimes I will get 1 ounce…what is with that? Sometimes I get so angry at my body for not cooperating, why can’t Ijust produce 3-4 ounces every time I pump?! It makes me wonder if I was breastfeeding instead of pumping he would only get an ounce…is that possible?


I have so many questions and I feel like lactation consultants and the internet never provide me with an answer, general responses are “your body makes what it needs to make, its supply and demand” or better yet, “let the baby guide you”…my response “ he is a baby, what does he know? He would stay on the boob all day if I let him, doesn’t mean he is hungry or actually eating?!

 I will do my best to continue breastfeeding for the first year of Sawyer’s life because its FREE and the “BEST” option for him (I put that in quotes because I know that is what we read but I honestly believe that in this day and age formula is probably just as good AND I think that sometimes what is best for mom and family sanity is best for baby too).

Ahhhh , am I alone?

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Happy Father's Day


Love.

Back to life, back to reality

I went back to work yesterday and Sawyer had his first day at daycare. The morning started at 5:22am when Sawyer woke up, I fed him, changed him and dressed him for his big day. He was happy to lay back down in the pack and play and make noise while Mark and I got ready. I then brushed my teeth, washed my face, put makeup on (for the 5th time since April 6, 2013), got dressed and headed downstairs. I packed the car with my work bag, lunch box and Sawyer’s daycare bag, let the dogs out (they were very confused why I was waking them up so early and letting them out) and we headed on our way. I cried the whole way to daycare, most of the time we were inside and my whole way to work, not to mention the 10 minutes I sat in my car sobbing before actually walking into work. I know he was going to be fine, obviously we love the daycare or we wouldn’t have chosen it but it was still hard and very sad. While I sit at my desk (still have not geared up to a full case load and I am killing some time before clocking out at 4:15pm) it makes me teary eyed….

I picked him up after work and they told me he was great, happy and had no issues (I think since it was his first day, even if he was fussy, crying, etc. I would want them to tell me he was great). He took 3 naps, one for 5 minute, one for 15 minutes and one for 2 hours and 40 minutes, needless to say I thought he would go home, eat and crash…not quite. We went home and let the dogs out, unpacked the car, changed into comfy clothes and checked the mail, I fed him and he was sleepy so I put him in his swing, he slept there for about 15 minutes but then sat quietly for another 30 while I cleaned the kitchen and unloaded the dishwasher. He began to get fussy around 6:15pm and so I held him, rocked him, talked to him and let him have his paci, he went in and out of sleepiness so I decided to feed him again at 7:30pm hoping it would put him to sleep, I was right but it did not last, he was back up and going around 8:15pm, we sat, rocked, etc. until about 9:00pm and when at this point he seemed wide awake I took him down to the swing so I could shower. When I got out of shower it was about 9:30pm and he was almost asleep in the swing, I took him out, he woke up, I fed him about 10 minutes on both sides, changed him and put him down…finally he was asleep at 10:00pm….luckily he slept until 3:40am, he ate and was back asleep at 4:11am but wouldn’t you know he was up and ready to roll at 5:22am (again!), I on the other hand was not so I picked him up, laid him on my chest, gave him his paci and he was back to sleep in no time. I got him up at 6:00am, fed him and handed him over to Mark. Our plan is for Mark to bring him to daycare daily between 8-8:30am except for the days he has off during the week (so he can sleep in), those days I will bring him around 7:30am. I will pick him up daily at 4:30pm, except on Mark’s days off, he will pick up whenever and I will have the afternoon for the gym, errands, etc.

I am hoping today/tonight will be better and I can feed him, bathe him and get him to bed by 9:00pm…fingers crossed! I am really hopeful that daycare will help with getting him on a schedule and getting closer to him sleeping through the night, or at least 5-6 hour stretches consistently so that I can too.
I am so thankful for to all my family and friends who wrote on my FB wall, texted and called me yesterday with words of encouragement, LOVE!

Weekend review (part 2)

3 weeks late…

Saturday we packed up and headed to CT to my sister’s MIL’s house, where her and her 2 daughters were  hard at work getting everything perfect for Kel’s arrival. The shower was great; it was Mike’s family, our family and a few close family friends. She received so many amazing gifts, I cannot believe how well dressed her little lady will be. The shower winded down between  4-5 and we stayed to clean up, Sawyer was very tired but unable to get himself any rest so by that time he had just had it. We were spending the night at the Fieldings, just two towns and 15 minutes away, he cried screamed the whole way there and until about 930pm, he finally went to bed around 11:30pm and we were up promptly at 6ish. Kel and Mike came over for breakfast (French toast, yum!) and coffee and then we headed to south jersey to visit my dad’s side. We stayed with my Aunt Maureen, she had a nice spread out and some aunts, cousins and grandma came over, we sat around the table and talked and ate. I was able to meet my cousin’s son who is 10 months old, I cannot believe how quickly babies grow and that sawyer will be there in 8 months! Sunday night Sawyer refused to sleep and I think we both only got about an hour or two. Monday was another travel day and he was perfect, slept the entire flight home.

I was glad to be home, excited to see mark and thankful that the traveling was all over!

This is how we "slept" on Sunday night

Grandma Kitty meeting Sawyer, he is her 2nd great grand child

Katie, Kate, Mike, Kel, Me & Sawyer, Mary

Mom's side of the family

Friday, June 7, 2013

Update to "the list"

When I started this blog over 2 years ago below was the list I made about the things I wanted to accomplish prior to turning 30.  I updated it in March 2012 (turned 30 in May 2012), with each passing year and the changes to our lives the list will need some updating.


  1. Dress for my body type
  2. Get a hair style
  3. Lose 30 pounds
  4. Learn about mother/parenthood
  5. Learn to like gardening
  6. Home d├ęcor/organization
  7. Keep my house clean
  8. Stay up until 11 and not be tired in the morning
  9. Ride my bike I have been riding the stationary bike we bought!
  10. Have patience
  11. Cook
  12. Coupon
  13. Bake
  14. Menu plan
  15. Grammer
  16. Stop swearing
  17. Minimize road rage
  18. Wake up without being sleepy
  19. Be crafty...do more DIY projects
First things first, since becoming a parent I have realized completing anything is harder and slower so I need to set fewer and more realistic goals.

1. Workout at least 3 times a week
2. Cut down on my swearing
3. Minimize road rage
4. Lose 50 pounds by the time Sawyer is 2
5. Complete one house project annually
6. Keep house clean/organized with one deep clean a month
7. Read to Sawyer everyday
8. Reach our savings goal by the time Sawyer is 2
9. Be crafty...do more DIY projects

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Weekend review (Part one)

Sawyer and I (and my mom and Bugs) headed north this past weekend to celebrate Kel, Mike and Lady Adams’ upcoming arrival. We flew into Newark on Thursday and spent the night at Kel and Mike’s new condo in Hoboken.

I was super nervous about breastfeeding in public and people being annoyed by me and all the “stuff” I had to go through security with but we were lucky and the airport was not that crowded and we got through security without a hitch and I had Bugs help me with coverage. Sawyer’s first plane ride was a success! He slept in the airport until we boarded and then I was able to breast feed him for the first half of flight, he was then full and happy the remainder of the trip. We only had a small hiccup…instead of getting off place, boarding tram to baggage and picking up our checked bags, we went straight to the rental car place. Thankfully as we were walking into Hertz I said, “shouldn’t we have picked up our bags first?” we all laughed and had to go all the back to baggage, which meant getting on and off the tram 4 times with a hungry baby. It would have been much worse to have arrived in Hoboken and realized we did not have our luggage!

Aunt Maria and Aunt Jeanne met us in Hoboken to have dinner. The condo is beautiful and Hoboken is a really cool town. Kel had to work on Friday so we took our time waking up and getting moving on Friday morning before heading to Mahwah for lunch at Aunt Jeanne’s. She got us boxed lunched from Panera and we sat outside in her garden eating and catching up, we were joined by my mom’s best friend from growing up, Debbie, she and my Aunt Jeanne have become close over the past few years.

After lunch we packed up and headed into Ho-Ho-Kus to the Russo’s. Aunt Carolyn, Uncle Louis, and Chris and Charlie joined us for an amazing dinner. Marcus was fascinated by Sawyer and it was hilarious watching him hold Sawyer and freak out every time he farted because he thought he was getting pooped on!

Kel let me borrow some items she had received at her showers so me and Sawyer were comfortable on the trip.

Aunt Maria, Me, Chris and Sawyer, Aunt Carolyn

Aunt Jeanne meeting Sawyer for the first time

Sawyer enjoying Lady Adams’ Boppy Lounger

Sleeping in Lady Adams’s Rock N Play Sleeper outside in Aunt Jeanne’s garden

Me and Sawyer on the plane

Marcus and Sawyer

Aunt Jeanne and Sawyer
Sawyer enjoying a bath in Lady Adams’ tub (since he had a blow out!)